The waves of emotion are overwhelming at times.... I am doing well and all seems good  Then the waves comes crashing and I fell like a crab against the rocks. Trying to make my way and holding on for dear life before I get swept back into the sea of emotions. Then the tide subside for awhile and I feel like I am making progress. I  go to work, I work out and do what I can to maintain. Then I feel the  sea begin to rise again. I can see it coming from a distance.  I know it will hurt and I try to do something. But I know I will feel the power of it and the struggle that will ensue....I pray, I plead , I ask God for relief.   I just ask that" thy will be done"  I have been through so much worse and I know it. But why does this one hurt so  much?  Does love hurt that much when ripped away?  I often feel like I am  being punished. But I have been blessed in so many ways too...So when I think about it, that is logically explained away but not emotionally.